fRI3nD pOoH

day by day..nite by nite..my heart goin to broken d..i really vry disappointed to myself..y im always like tat wan?? wat happen to me acually??izit smth wrong wit me??y it always happen to me non stop??izit sumthing wrong wit my attitude??izit my attitude let other ppl feel weird or mayb rude??izit my atitude let so many ppl hate me or mayb let them unhappy??n many many many..can anybody tell me??i really can breath at all d..i really vry suffer wit all those matter…i really fel wan fedup d..=(

from begining after i moved here i really fel comfortable n fel happy..coz i can start my new life here..i hav meet alot of new frens, housemates,roomates n alot alot alot..bt now i already lost all these feeling d..i realy duno y…

since im moved here i tot i can begin my new life here n also is time 4 me to learn to b independent d..bt izit all those matters n happening which let me cant face it n acept it or hurt me is to test me??i really dun understand..can all these matters stop happen to me n let me hav a  nice and gud beginig for my future??can let me hav a gud memory in my study life??i really dun wish to face it n i alsio really dun wish all these happen to me..gv me a break pls…

mayb in my life i really have to walk through this road n hav to face it..mayb all these really is to test me n let me learn to bcum more matured..bt at least can gv me a break pls..i really cant acept in a short moment..can jz let me try to face this wit 1 by 1 bt not all in a short time..i realy fell cant breath d..

since after no long n i hav to face such problem which i hav nv though b4..i realy fel my life hav meaningless and also lost in control n even me i also lost my own control d..i fel im goin to hav mental problem d..everyday i always keep thinking "wats wrong wit me??", "izit i hav did smth wrong??" and many many many..i alwasy keep thinkand think and think..no matter at nite or day im still kep thinking even when i having i also keep thining..i really fel fedup d..=(

i noe mayb i really hav did sumthing wrong..bt i alrd try to use all the way to correct it or even try to corect or improve myself..bt i seems still doesn’t work..i realy fel sobx..bt if i really did smth wrong which let u guys cant accept it bt can u guys at least tel me wats happen or wats goin on or wat i hav done wrong n at least i noe..i will try to listen n improve myself..if dun wan let me noe then how i noe n how i corect it??pls gv me another chance pls..mayb i hav think too much bt i really cant drop all this away n i really cant release myself..i really dun wish too all these hapen to me!!i really vry care abt it!!

im so sory tat talk all these in my blog..i noe im not supose talk all this over her..bt i really hav no choice..i really need sumthing to let my release myself…sory guys..if i hav say sumthing which u dun like or let u misunderstand i would like to make a apologoze to u all here..if not feel free to leave a comment to scold me or mayb can gv me sum idea or advice..i’ll vry apprecaiate it..

bt i will promise myself i won let it happen to me ANYMORE!!!i will try to correct it wit 100%!!i also will try to corect n improve myself!!!i swear!!!i will try to start face my new life without any worries and also wihout any hamper!!!

GAMBATEH!!GO!GO!JIA YIU!! NSL U CAN DO IT!!ACHA ACHA FIGHTING!!! YES!!!

p/s thx again for those who view this such weird blog..hehex..n sorry that if i have say anything wrong in this blog as weel as my grammar not vry gud at all so hope u guys understand wat im trying to talk abt….thx alot!!! ^-^

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